missing something

Christmas has been kind of strange for me since we stopped gift giving. I've been forced to think about why we observe the traditions that we do and how I want to celebrate Christmas in the future. I don't want to stop doing anything at all but I don't want to fall back into the mindless perversion that is Christmas. I think I need to examine all winter traditions and maybe pick something else after I figure out what they are all about and how they came to be. I miss the sweet smell of an evergreen trimmed with lights and hand-me-down ornaments. I guess I can go buy a candle.