rain, rain, go away

The back yard is flooded, the dogs want to pee but the two little ones don't like to swim. I thought this was funny.














I may have to risk another sports related injury and use the kayak to float out of here. I need summer.

dream vacation goes awry

I woke up depressed this morning. I had a bad dream that Alex and I were on vacation with his little brothers and sister at a large ocean side resort with elevators that were shaped like the foot statue from lost, except these feet were gold. Alex befriended Seth Green while at the pool. He quickly forgot about spending time with his family and developed a destructive heroin habit. I told Alex that he had to choose between his life with me or his drug addiction and Seth Green. He chose the smack and Seth, I was crushed. I packed our luggage and the kids and we rode the golden foot home leaving my true love in the arms of Seth Green. I woke up and told the real husband that I had a bad dream, I didn't go into the details. He was already dressed for work and he was freezing cold from going outside to warm his car. He gave me a big hug until I forgot all about the failed intervention and being depressed.

Julie

My Sister was on the cover of the local Link magazine. I waited too late to pick up a copy but I was able to view the photos here. This is my favorite.

Wine Night

Before I got pregnant, Alex and I always had wine night on Monday evening. I thought of it as a way to learn more about wine, try new types, and to get a bit tipsy after the first workday of the long week ahead. We picked the ritual back up a couple of weeks ago. Now, I've decided that I am adding wine to the list of things that I want to love but really don't even like. So far this list has two other items: coffee and sushi. I want to enjoy coffee, sushi, and wine just like all the other cool kids, but alas, I cannot. So as of right now, I hereby declare Monday nights, LIQUOR NIGHT! Woot!

bad blogger

December is gone, here's what happened.

1. Mama's 50th Birthday! My mom and my sister share the same birthday. Julie usually gets all the love but this year we gave mama a beer and wings birthday party. There were old friends, new friends, family, gifts, food, and a super chocolaty cake from Strossner's. I hope she enjoyed it.

Mama's 50th Birthday Party
Originally uploaded by AmySaid

2. Jasmine's 18th Birthday! We went to a party for my sister-in-law, Jasmine. Isn't she pretty?













3. Christmas. Ah, it comes every year and I every year I agonize over the traditions. This year, I felt like an extra in a movie or some kind of stand-in celebrator. I bounced from space to space "doing Christmas". I really don't get it. I'm uncomfortable with teaching Lucas that this mindlessness is normal, but I feel like the only Christmas machine that has been deprogrammed.
I decorated, I even photographed the decorations. I haven't decorated in years. I thought that a tree and stockings would jumpstart my holiday spirit, it didn't. Christmas is gone, my gifts were confusion and guilt. What am I going to teach Lucas? Am I depriving him of some kind of childhood right by not teaching him about Santa and showering him with mounds of plastic? Is he going to be that bitter, know-it-all kid that ruins Christmas for all of the other children? At least I have a few months to figure it out.
Lucas did enjoy the lights though.

Christmas 2009
Originally uploaded by AmySaid

inspired again

For the last few years, I guess since our family photos went digital, I've managed to avoid being photographed very often. It so easy to press delete when you don't like the way your clothes fit or how the camera angle shows off your chin(s). Also we lost a hard drive earlier this year that had all of the photos that I considered acceptable. Since Lil Lou arrived, I've spent a lot of time trying to preserve every waking moment on film-memory card space is probably more accurate. I've also been going through old photos of Alex and myself trying to match up his nose or eyes. It has really started bothering me that I'm not in any of the recent photos. I want Lou to be able to look back at his beginning and see how happy he has made me.

Coincidentally, I clicked a button today that lead me to read about the life of an amazing woman. After a nearly fatal airplane accident that left her with facial burns, she writes about the love that she has in her life, she posts photos of her happy family, and she includes her smiling face.

This really did take a lot of effort but it is only the beginning. Maybe I should have saved this epiphany for my new year's resolution. Oh well, I always have the old stand-by. Stop swearing.

Aye me

I have a problem. I can't use facebook. I don't know why. I just spent the last 30ish minutes trying to update my status. I couldn't do it so I deactivated my account. I did the same thing not that long ago with myspace. It's probably the social part of the social networking that is difficult for me. I don't mean to neglect friends and family, it just happens. I'm really not sure why, I bet I could dig up some buried psychological reason but that doesn't sound like fun either. I was really looking forward to scanning some old photos too. Oh, well. For now, I am content with sitting on the bed, typing this post, teaching Lou how to use his new dragon wubbanub and planning my mamas 50th birthday party.

Maybe its time to update to a Flikr pro account, hmmm.

Happy December.